So far so good, there have been ups and downs, but overall I'm happy with the progress being made, 6.6kg down in 6 weeks is a pretty good average. Gold star for me (and Jason who is 5kg down) for sticking at it!
During the first 6 weeks of 2012 we have seen friends go through a lot of heartache, one mate, 36 years old has had a stroke, only a minor stroke and he is doing well but its a bloody worry. Another friend who is 40 has had a heart attack and is scheduled for a bypass, wtf, these are things we imagine we don't have to concern ourselves with at our age, I'll be 33 this year and Jase will be 35, these events have shocked me to the core and made me re-evaluate my reasons for getting healthy, some how it doesn't feel like I'm just trying to lose weight any more, I'm looking at the bigger picture...
In other news I'm still dealing with my immature mother who seems hell bent on destroying my father, they have been separated for a year now, she has just lodged her divorce papers, is 'on with' what was dads best mate, and is taking dad to court at the drop of a hat for what she says are breaches of the AVO she has in place, what i don't get is how she always manages to be everywhere he is and she then says its him.... for instance, the new boyfriend lives just around the corner from dad, dad is not allowed within 50 metres of her, so she takes him back to court to have the AVO amended so that he has to drive a different route to get into town on pension day etc, she also often drives by his house because she feels the need to 'keep an eye on him' and she seems to be loving it?! .... I haven't spoken to dad since Easter last year as he was just bringing to much stress, hassle, drama, you name it onto myself and little family, involving the children etc, yet i cant help but feel sorry for him to some degree as his world is crumbing down around him, his doing?.... maybe.... but it must feel horrible to feel like your whole family has abandoned you.... having said that i don't know if I'm willing to take that path again and allow him into my/our lives as he is 100% a manipulative narcissistic man who will twist and turn you inside out to get what he wants without you even realising it... and yet he is my dad *sigh*.... what will be will be i guess, and as I'm feeling all this I'm reminded that during this past 9 months of no contact he has made no effort himself, no cards for the kids birthdays, Christmas etc, and it is a two way street, i know if i was in his position i would be at least sending cards even at the risk that they may return to me in the post, which is what he would be thinking.....
Enough of that, just needed to offload! Back to my success, very proud of my efforts and enjoying pro points, not tracking every single day, but most days i do, and I'm only exercising a few days a week, i think i may need to up this in the near future, if i can fit it in between the housework, the kids activities, the ironing ( i iron for others for a few extra $$) and working 6 nights, far out that looks hectic when i write it down!!
