why whyyy whyyyyyyy???

arghhhh im so fricken frustrated with myself, have been on a total and complete binge fest for days now, eating anything and everything that gets in my way :(

i sooooo dont want to weigh myself because then i'll start on the self hate, then i'll give up :(

i dont wanna give up :(

obviously i need to work harder on the mental side of weight loss, a loss triggers a binge, a bad day triggers a binge, a bad moment triggers a binge.... sooo frustrating i could just scream!!!!

right, no weighing for 2 weeks, 2 solid weeks of good food, balance and exercise as well as a daily analysis of my moods.... lets see what tomorrow will bring :(

wow what a week, ive been suffering with an unbearable toothache this week, went to the dentist yesterday and had the offending tooth removed, there was an abscess in the gum causing pain also. OMG I NEVER WANT TO EXPERIENCE THAT AGAIN! Because of the abscess the area wouldn't numb out completely, id rather give birth than feel that again, i was in tears in the dentist chair. I have a lot of work to be done and have to go back on August 10th, not looking forward to that. I feel like Ive gone 10 rounds with Mike Tyson!! Theres been no exercise this week and my food choices have been off so no weigh in this week, I'm not going to punish myself with a gain this week on top of everything Ive been through!!

My goal at the minute is to be 70kg for my birthday, 30th July, 5 weeks away, very achievable i think :o)

100g

Yup only a slight 100g loss this week but heck considering the week its been i'll take that!

I was looking forward to a nice relaxing long weekend with Jase and the kiddies, being a long weekend there was no sport on which was great, but bugger me I was struck down with Laryngitis and Tonsillitis which in turn has gone to my chest and I now have Bronchitis, not happy, as you could imagine there has been no exercise done and my food choices have been far from good, for some reason I tend to reach for high sugar foods when I'm under the weather. I'm back on track food wise but don't want to push the exercise, I will ease back into it over the coming week... Thank god for antibiotics, they seem to have me on the road to recovery!

On another note I now have a coule of upcomming (although still quite a way off) social events to motivate me on my ww journey, September and October will see milestone birthdays for 2 of our mates and January (ages away yes but will be here before we know it!) we have a fancy dress birthday to attend, never been to one before so im looking forward to that and would like to be at goal and into maintenance by then :o)

2 Wonderful Weeks

Yup, that's exactly what its been.... who'd of thought that you can eat and lose weight! I think Ive spent wayyy to long being brainwashed by Cohens because to be honest I was somewhat scared when I switched back to WW, I was sure the kg's where gonna pile on, but no, just the opposite, 2kg gone in week 1 and another 2.2kg gone this past week, WOOT! Add to that Ive actually learnt a couple of lessons these past 2 weeks.... Its better to have what you want in a smaller portion over something with next to no calories is a huge portion..... exercise, its the key to not only weight loss but better sleep, better moods and just feeling well and alert in general!... Food doesn't make you happy, I'm unlocking some triggers to my habitual emotional eating and finding a few triggers to my bloody binges.... you are what you eat, better food choices affect all aspects of your day, an apple over a few lolly snakes is always better, probably a no brainer but in the past it eat a lot of junk but within my points allowance.... who says you cant teach an old dog new tricks!!!!

1 week down

Well I'm 1 week down and I have to say its been fantastic, Ive stayed on track all week, havent struggled, and have even been able to enjoy a biscuit with my coffee every other day, Ive managed to exercise everyday, and have even managed to get my water intake up, all in all its been a FANTASTIC week and for my efforts Ive been rewarded with a 2.0kg loss!! wooohooooo!

I cant even begin to tell you how great I'm feeling, my energy levels are up, I'm not starving and I'm enjoying eating meals with the family again, although slightly modified, healthier and in smaller portions, so I'm hoping the whole family benefit from this change.

Why didn't I do this months ago? haha ahh well better now than never :o)